personal thoughts

Sometimes life seems like such a stranger even though everyone in living their own life, almost nothing you do seems to be in your control. Even your body won't listen to you, you don't want body and BOOM! hair grows everywhere, you don't want the hair on your head top fall and BOOM! now it's gone. it is such a viscous cycle stress makes hair fall - hair falls you get stressed - more hair falls - more stress. There is no significant way in which we can control our bodies internal machinery, so much so that we are slaves to ourselves. We think screw it, I'm going to live my life to the fullest not caring about tomorrow and surely tomorrow comes and all the havoc we ourselves created comes falling down on us like a diarrhea rainfall. We go outside wanting a beautiful full of inspiration and accomplishment and someone else is having a bad day and you're their punching bag, someone woke up with a headache, or broke a nail, just missed the signal to cross the road, elevator just started moving just as you we about to press the button. you can't say anything because their your superior the only option you have is to sigh and justify their negligence. You can't even share your mind lest they get pissed and your out of a job. 

Your body against you, the world surrounding you against you, the only thing you have for yourself are your thoughts and even those cannot be shared easily for fear of judgement. So you decide to write a blog just so you can throw everything in your mind somewhere and read them and contemplate your thoughts and there's MNC's with algorithms trying to sift through everything on the internet making a profile on you to spam more ad's and finding ways in which they can leech more money out of you.

Why is life so meaningless, people say you need to find inspiration, meaning in life well the only thing that I found is that nothing I do is in my control.i have no say in the why the groceries i bought last week are double in price today why my boss expects me to work harder and dedicate more time to my work when I have zero equity in his business. Everyday just goes by you work 10 hours a day come home barely have time for dinner and chores a few hours of personal time which again you spend with your partner and have to discuss future plans and other home work there is barely anything left for yourself and dare you say you need sometime self-time  it immediately indicates that you hate your spouse and have stopped loving her.

Life was so much more simpler when we were young but I guess life was simpler because our parents were going through what we are going through now if someone had shown this to you and said would like to be born? I think the earth's population would diminish by 90%.